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Archive for September, 2006

Shutdown and Restart

Posted by hrgarippa on 25 September, 2006

Lately I can’t seem to get my mind to shutdown, trying to fall asleep seems to be the hardest thing for me. I will replay over and over again the events of day, the could ofs, the should ofs, the ifs and the buts. I spend time in a dream state imagining what life would be, if only…

And I want it to stop. I want to know why I am so anxious, why my mind is so filled with thoughts and plans I can’t control. My mind has become a graveyard of all the I see and hear, everything is laid to rest there and as I search for peace the ghosts pop up to haunt me.

Last night as the minutes ticked by on the clock, the hymn from church came to my mind – “Take my Life” the verse that says, “Take my moments and my days; let them flow in ceaseless praise. Then Philippians 4.8 came to mind,

“Whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.”

As I lay thinking about this verse, I thought how do I live in a world where there are very few things honorable, true, commendable, lovely, pure, just and worthy of praise – how do I find these things amidst the chaos of this life. How do I find these things when in my heart is pain, jealousy, rage, discontentedness, deceit, ugliness, and pride?

I find them in Jesus who is the only one who embodies all of these, in Jesus who covers me and makes it possible for our Father to see lovely things in me. And you, Jesus shutdown these images and restart my heart so that I can turn my eyes and heart toward the things that are true and right.

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Edison V. Quintanilla

Posted by hrgarippa on 19 September, 2006

Last night Chris (co-worker) and I took 17 kids to watch their school, Edison play football. My mentee, Rissah happens to go to Quintanilla so it worked out perfect that I could see her Uncle (13) play as well. The seventh graders at Quintanilla worked the Edison 7th graders, but our 8th graders put on a good show and won in a shut out. The kids were pretty excited, we took them to Popeyes afterward for some good ole fried chicken.

Here is a picture of the crazy kids…

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Home

Posted by hrgarippa on 15 September, 2006

A friend of mine has a blog called “Making Art Together” and every month she and all her artsy friends do creative projects related to a specific theme, Septembers theme is “home” and although I am in no way artsy, I think I know how to define home, for me, and how to display it.

Home is being known and knowing others. It is an intimate connection with someone that goes so deep it is felt without being near. It is safety and love and compassion and lots of laughter. And it can be found everywhere.

I have found home at Mercy Street, with these amazing kids who call me Miss Hannah.


I have found home with my friends, like my dear Hattie.

And of course with my sometimes crazy, always wonderful family.


(This is not the entire family, by the way.)

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Mentors

Posted by hrgarippa on 6 September, 2006

We need mentors, and we need them bad. Many of you have mentioned that you might be interested. If you are please contact me I have a child dying to meet you.

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Psalm 10.17-18

Posted by hrgarippa on 5 September, 2006

O Lord, you hear the desire of the
afflicted;
you will strengthen their heart; you
will incline your ear
to do justice to the fatherless and the
oppressed,
so that man who is of the earth may
strike terror no more.

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