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Archive for August, 2006

These Moments

Posted by hrgarippa on 28 August, 2006

I do not want to miss these moments.

Right now my world seems uneasy, very chaotic. People I love are leaving. I am leaving a home that I have loved and lived well in. I am starting a new job, that will require me to be more than I have ever been. I am longing for a different kind of life, but am strangely content in the one where I currently reside. There is part of me that wants to throw my hands up to the Lord and say, Why? Why do you insist on changing my seemingly perfect life. Just when I have a system and things seem to be going in a straight line, You zig zag. I like straight, straight makes sense to me. But straight also keeps me from full reliance on my Creator. When things are going straight it seems I can get ahead, I can run the course without Him (or so I think), but when we are zig zagging oh how I need Him. I never know which way we are turning, left, right…a u-turn. The journey is exhausting and defeating if I try it on my own. But if I let him lead…he binds me close and the rest begins. My weary soul finds more comfort in these chaotic moments…so I don’t want to miss a second, I want to remember all these turns and twists and how my Father was ever present, ever leading and faithfully loving me ALWAYS.

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Feeling

Posted by hrgarippa on 18 August, 2006

Do you ever get the feeling that whatever you do is wrong, logically you know that feeling isn’t true but everywhere you turn…wrong, wrong, wrong, wrong.

I feel like my opinion, my voice, my everything is wrong.

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School Days

Posted by hrgarippa on 17 August, 2006

So I registered for classes, I’ll just be taking two:

Spanish and,
Contemperary Social Issues

I’m pretty excited.

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Posted by hrgarippa on 15 August, 2006

Here is a sweet reminder,

You have kept count of my tossings,
put my tears in your bottle.
Are they not in your book?
Then my enemies will turn back
in the day when I call.
This I know, That God is for me.

Psalm 56.8,9

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First Day of School

Posted by hrgarippa on 15 August, 2006

Yesterday was the first day of school in the DISD. I called Rissah (the student I mentor) to ask how it went, it was her first day in seventh grade, and she said “terrible“.

She got into a fight. She has been fighting a lot lately, anyone who looks at her the wrong way, speaks to her the wrong way or that just gets in her way she wants to beat down. It doesn’t matter if they are younger, her age or an adult, she is ready with her fists up.

I don’t know how to respond to this. This is learned behavior, Rissah’s mom fights everyone, she is 7 months pregnant and fights with a vengeance. But I expect more from Rissah. Rissah knows what is right and what is wrong. Everyone at MS has spoken truth into her life, she is loved dearly by whole entourage of people. But she has chosen anger and she is in for a world of hurt if she keeps this up. Life is not easy for someone consumed with anger. I see expulsion, incarceration, physical pain in her future and all I can say is…Please pray for this child

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Favorites

Posted by hrgarippa on 14 August, 2006

Here are two of my favorite pictures from New York City,

St. Patrick’s Cathedral

and my sister and I in Central Park…

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The Ron Clark Story

Posted by hrgarippa on 14 August, 2006

Last night I watch a made for T.V. movie called, The Ron Clark Story. It is about a man who moves to NYC and teaches in Harlem, he has some really rough kids that most everyone has given up on, and it is about how he made a difference and changed their lives.

This inspiring, kind of cheesy, not at all real to life movie reminded me of my dreams and the aspirations I had at one time. I can remember when I was in High School I wanted to be that kind of teacher, I wanted to reach those kind of kids and I wanted to make a difference. I believe that I am making a difference in what I am doing. What I am doing is not that far from what i dreamed of doing then, but I am missing one crucial piece of the puzzle, a formal education.

Mr. Ron Clark and his story made me see that I lost that part of my dream so I want to reclaim it.

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New York City

Posted by hrgarippa on 3 August, 2006

My sister Christy and I are going to New York City. This is my first trip to the city for pure fun…with the funnest person I know.

I’m so excited I can hardly sit still.

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43 Things

Posted by hrgarippa on 3 August, 2006

So I just reread my list of things I want to do and it has re-energized me. Just seeing that list has excited me to the possibilites of living better, of being a more whole person by accomplishing some of dreams and my desires.

Yippee for lists!

Yippee for dreams!

Yippee for God-given desires!

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Eviction

Posted by hrgarippa on 3 August, 2006

The constable has come. Today is the day, the notices have come and gone. Eviction is inevitable. The Dallas Housing Authority says you must pay $700 dollars by the end of the day or you and your stuff will be put out. Put out? How can that be. There are children that live there, five kids and one on the way! Where will they go, who will help them? Why didn’t they pay $90 when they got the first notice? Oh, the embarrassment of being put out.

I wonder, can we help? Will giving them the money be the best, most loving thing for this family. How will they ever learn that actions (or lack of action) have consequences. Will helping them perpetuate the situation, cause them to lean on the wrong thing.

O, Father how do we help? How do we show them your love? I leave this family and all those like them in your Great and Mighty hands Father. May you take our actions, our responses and make them good, make them pure and right. Help us to shine brightly for You, in all we do.

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